Huge transition ahead

I am in the process of huge transition in my life. I have been in this transition for about one year and have been distracting myself in all sorts of ways in order to avoid the transition.

The last six months I have been taking small yet significant steps towards this transition.

Now I am running full blast ahead towards this transition in my life. I am excited for the first time in months. This is; When I am awake. I know deep inside this transition is exactly what I need but to be honest I am shutting down at times.

Shutting down and sleeping more than usual is a common defense method I have used for years. Let me tell you it is in full effect now. The part of the country I live in is in a exceptional drought at the moment and luckily for the last 3 days we have had the most peaceful, dreamy, juicy rain ever.

Well, I have been sleeping the whole time. I have done the very minimal amount of anything but listen to podcasts, read emails, read books, read blogs and sleep. I feel blessed that I have this time to rest but I also question if I am using the rain as a distraction to prevent me from doing what I need to do.

Who knows? But right now I am going to make a nice steamy mug of hot tea and stare out the floor to ceiling windows at the rain falling through the trees.